February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 29

Not the best, but I'm not in the best mood.


February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 28

Right now my hubby is my best friend, not always happy about it but he plays the part well. I think he wants me to have a real best friend like I used to but been having problems with that. I do have many friends, close friends, friends I would drop everything for to help, but right now I'm not really searching for a best.

February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 27 - BONUS!

Too cute not to share


February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 27


February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 26


Catch up (again) February Photo-a-day Challenge

Day 24: Attack the Strawberries!
Day 25: Grandma says no pets, so we have stuffies


February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 23


February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 22

Funny thing is I don't always have breakfast. But this is Lemon Crisp Blueberry granola with soy milk and coffee with soy milk. This is some yummy granola.

Do you have the Power?

Why hello there everyone! Thanks for hanging in there, those of you that stayed. I've recently realized that wow I have gotten way off track with reading. Now it's time to start making it part of my routine again. 

I just finished my first book of the year, notice how we are in the second month though, The Power of Six by Pittacus Lore. This is the second installment to I am Number Four. Not my usual genre but it's a good read, not to mention a pretty cool movie.

In the first book we meet John Smith and Six, two of the nine members of the Lorien Guarde. They are aliens, that have been sent to Earth under a charm to try and save them till they develop their Legacies, aka super cool powers, and can protect Earth and eventually Lorien. With the help of Henri, John aka Four's Cepan, and Sam Goode a nice human alien obsessed boy they win their first battle against the Modgs.

In this installment we meet two more of the nine members and a surprise tenth! We find out why these Nine are so special, as in not just the next generation of Guarde. And we find out that Sam was actually right about his alien abduction theory and is a bigger part than just John's human best friend.

I really don't want to say too much, since that would give it away, but I was really blown by this installment. It didn't seem to lag like some can, but instead picked up momentum. I'm wondering how the next book will be.

February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 21


February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 20


February Photo-a-day Challenge Day 19

I think it's been about 4 years since I drew something


Why yes I am aware I'm overreacting, no I can't stop

via deviantart

There is one thing that I have come to notice during this whole PPD I'm going through, and it's that my emotions are stuck on high.

What exactly does it mean? It means that I am fully aware that I am overreacting but I am not in control of stopping.

And guess what? I don't like it either. But I am doing much better than I was. I would have these fits every day, I mean every stinking day, over nothing really. I would cry over getting dressed, I would cry over being late, I would cry over having to repeat myself. I kid you not! But I could not stop myself.

Now those times are few and far apart. But they tend to happen at embarrassing and/or public times. One of the first times this happened was at Christmas dinner with my huge family. Grandma at the time was getting infusion done every morning, so I ran around Christmas morning instead of spending time with my 3 kids and cleaned like a maniac for dinner at 2pm.

What happens? Someone puts Ariel's highchair outside and every time I try to sit down and or get Ariel to relax so I can go get food someone basically yells at me and says I'm in their way.

End result? I wind up fed up and storm into my room with Ariel and cry while my mom sends me texts telling me to just get over it and come back out. I wish to the sweet Goddess I could just get over but I can't. Because basically what I'm feeling is that I just spent this whole time cleaning for everyone but I can't even enjoy it like I'm not allowed. Now I know that is an overreaction, did it stop how I felt? NO.

It's hard, it's annoying, and it downright sucks. But it is how it is. I am getting better but it takes time and understanding. Telling me to get over it, does not help. Telling me to just forget about it does not help.

I'm just trying to get back to being me here people.

If you are thinking about starting therapy you can check out this article by Better Help: https://www.betterhelp.com/online-therapy/

Playing Catch Up Photo-a-day Challenge

So after my last post I awoke Valentine's Day after feeling run down to a 104 fever. After a trip to the doctor's I found out I had a very bad case of strep throat, that test that usually takes 5 minutes, yeah it took mine like 30 seconds to turn positive. Then there was a nice mix up with my meds, where I didn't look and wound up taking 2 Prozacs instead of antibiotics, wasn't aware I had it filled and waiting for me. But I'm finally on the mend, my throat still hurts but not as much, I've just the lovely "death" cough, and it takes me a few minutes before I feel light headed from doing something.

Day 13
Day 14
Day 15
Day 16: I forgot so this is what I had
Day 17: that's not even all of them
Day 18: yes we need a new screen
And I am caught up!

I'm not dead I swear Photo-a-Day Challenge

You might have noticed I've been missing, I didn't die. Instead I welcomed another year of my life! Saturday was my birthday, and I had a great weekend, don't worry I still took my photos.

Day 10: I actually had homemade mac & cheese but forgot to take a photo
Day 11
Day 12: BABIES!
Ok I lied I did not keep up, I thought I did, but I forgot today's. But the lights are off the baby is asleep and I'm about to follow suit. Tomorrow I will do today's and tomorrow's. Night loves!

Photo-a-Day Challenge: Day 9

Kissy Kissy
Funny Face


Photo-a-Day Challenge: Day 8

Fighting with the sleepy baby
Finally asleep
My bottles that I refill
Second time making coffee of the day
Watching AJ talk with Papa
Relaxing with Eeyore


Photo-a-Day Challenge: Day 7