Finding Time

Ever feel like you don't have enough time in the day?

I have been feeling like that for the past few weeks mainly since Ariel has decided the best place to be is either on mommy or next to me. The moby wrap does help to get some stuff done but with the big things I need to do I have to be able to bend and move and not worry about a baby falling out. It's been a fight just to be able to put her down to get on here this morning.

It's not so much as time that I need but space and to get space I need money to get money I need a job but to get a job I need to leave my baby and toddler which I can't do. Yeah I might complain that Ariel has the separation anxiety but I have it to. Plus I'm trying to exclusively breastfeed which means I'm nursing on demand and I just don't get enough with pumping to do it that way, unless I were to take pumping breaks every 2 hours on the dot and even then I'm not sure it would be enough. Not to mention that once we go to recert for GA and I add Hubby and Ariel to the account I will most likely lose my cash assistance since he "makes too much" by their standards, which means I won't get state aid with daycare, which means if I did get a job out of the home my whole paycheck would go to daycare, not worthy it. So, in order to get money without leaving the kiddios I need to work from home which means I need time to get on the computer and research and blog and promote. It's kind of a weird cycle here. Not unlike the cycle Hubby goes through, which is looking for a new job he needs time to do so but can't with his job but he doesn't want to leave without having a new job.

Round and round we go, anyone besides me dizzy yet?

I haven't even had a chance to celebrate the sabbats, I do honor them how I can but I don't get a chance to go out and get supplies and have time to actually do a ritual. I really missed doing something for Beltane, I was planning on going to festivals and getting henna on the baby belly, I was in the hospital for that one. Then Midsummer I wanted to do something special, thank the faeries for guarding me and my family (whether good or bad who knows) and to celebrate the summer but alas it came and went and I did nothing more than wish everyone a Happy Midsummer!

There's always next year! Here's hoping we're at our own place by then and I'm making some sort of money from home.





Who doesn't love Melissa & Doug?


I love tons of Melissa & Doug toys, I don't have too many but I love the designs. But I just entered to win (and am again) these cute little Seaside Sidekicks over at So anyway....






It's simple the instructions are here: So anyway...: Seaside Sidekicks Giveaway. So hop over and enter for your chance to win!


Ouchies!

For a few days now I've had a nice little egg on the side of my ankle. It's been sore but not too bad as long as I didn't touch it. Well now it's been hurting pretty bad, I'm limping and it looks slightly bigger BUT it's not hard anymore it's soft. I should have gone to my doctor and gotten it looked at but I didn't. I'm pretty sure I just sprained it. Somewhere I have an ankle brace. I've been trying to keep it up and stay off of it. Send me any healing energy if you want.

Oh and I have absolutely no idea what I did to it.









Can we say growth spurt?

Big girl!
So Ariel went to her cardiologist appointment yesterday and I think it's safe to say she is having a growth spurt. Just last week at her pedi she was 7lbs even and 20" long well .... she is now (insert drum roll) 7lbs 15oz and 21" long!

That could explain why I feel like she's nursing all the time. Although she is still taking a bottle, which I'm trying wean her off of, she is still only taking 2oz or less most of the time. I think that if I only had her to look after and could just spend a whole day at home with nothing to do but nurse her I could break her of the bottle. The problem with that is of course that I do have a toddler and I usually have 50 million things to do since I can never do everything I need to.

Anyways I'm just so happy to see that she is growing so well and doesn't really look like a preemie anymore. Oh and the cardiologist said he didn't hear anything alarming and that her murmur should close itself over time.



Hurray for blog buttons

So I've been trying to figure out how to make a blog button, it's been most trial and error on my part. But I finally found a tutorial that even I could follow and I wanted to share it.

I found it over at Musings of a Housewife it's very easy to follow and even comes with nifty little copy links. Find it here. She also has a tutorial on how to make your own button, find that here. I didn't use her tutorial, I made my button with free stock from from insomnia-stock and using the photobucket edit feature. What do you think?



I also made this one for my book blog:




Teaser Tuesday 6/14

Teaser Tuesdays is a weekly bookish meme, hosted by MizB of Should Be Reading. Anyone can play along! Just do the following:
  • Grab your current read
  • Open to a random page
  • Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page
  • BE CAREFUL NOT TO INCLUDE SPOILERS! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)
  • Share the title & author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers!

Crescendo (Hush, Hush)"Fun as seeing you fight Marcie was, I figured it probably wasn't worth the cost of you spending the night in jail," Vee said. 
pg. 171 Crescendo by Becca Fitzpatrick












Grow Baby Grow

Look at the chubby face!
Today was Ariel's check up and she is now a chubby little preemie weighing in at 7lbs even! She also is now 20" long. Now if you remember just 2 weeks ago she was 5lbs 13.5oz and 19" long. So I she did a great growth. I guess I can probably stop worrying that she isn't eating enough now. The nurse even had to ask if she saw us the last time cause Ariel's face looks completely different now.

The doctor did still hear the heart murmur, the cardiologist appointment is for next week, he was a bit disappointed at that. Then the week after we have the check up with her NICU doctor for after her due date, can't believe that she is almost to her due date already. And since we have those other appointments her doctor said she can wait till she's 2 months old to come in for a well visit and get her shots (so not looking forward to that).

Oh and not only will she be going but AJ will be having his well visit that same day, don't remember if he gets shots or not but at least Hubby is coming with us cause I don't think I could handle 2 kids at the doctor's for check ups. Yikes!


Book Blogger Hop 6/11






Hey guys I know it's a been a while since I done one, blame the crappy at the hospital, but I'm back and ready to start blogging and reviewing regularly again (hopefully).

This week the Book Blogger Hop is being hosted at Lori's Reading Corner and the question is:


Who is the ONE author that you are DYING to meet?




This is an easy one I would LOVE to meet the wonderful Holly Black! (Did I shock a few of you?) I think she is fabulous and I love not just her teen series Tithe but I love the Spiderwick books too. I just would love to meet the person who dreamed up Kaye Fierch, the faery but not a faery.

Babywearing!

I love it! I really really do. I did it with Monster and I'm doing it with Mermaid.

It promotes tons of good stuff, like milk supply, sleep habits, regulates the breathing, and generally just makes the baby happier. Some people think it's hippie like, but it's older than that, think Native American cradle-boards, think to how women must have done everything they did with a baby around, yeah I'm willing to bet they wrapped them up and slung them over their shoulder. It's great for bonding with the baby and for that oh so important skin-to-skin contact, especially with my little preemie girl.







With Mermaid we are using the mobywrap, it's the only one truly recommended for use with preemies. With Monster I had a sling. Both are fairly easy to use and are even easier with practice. 








So do you babywear? What's your favorite way to do it? What are your reasons for doing it?





Same Thing, Different Brand

Now a few years ago, after the pot, before the kids, when I had more brain cells to spare and was so tired of the comments about how I was such a good Christian, when I would smile and nod and think "yeah except I'm PAGAN!" I started seriously thinking about religions, thinking about how the were the same but different. This was when I came up with my little saying of "Same thing, different brand" I mean if you really think about, down to it's basic principles all religions are about the same thing, they just go about it in a different way.

The really good way I could think to explain it was that you are walking on a street, you look around and every little thing is different. The buildings, the people, the plants, the colors, everything. You start walking up a hill, and look back at the same street, well now you can't tell the difference between every little thing anymore. You can make out the different shapes, and big colors, sizes in people, but not in as much detail. The you climb a mountain and look back down at that same street, well now everything looks the same, the people, the building, all the same thing.

If you think of this in the aspect of religion, if you dig deep enough and actually study different religions you will find the same core values in them. It's just the way they worship is different.

The two most obvious that I take our Paganism and Christianity. These two are so much alike they can't stand it, at least that's how I view it. These are also the easiest for me to dissect since I was raised Christian and was blatantly Pagan (at least in my mind).

The one true God versus the many Gods and Goddesses: In Christianity, particularly Catholicism you have saints for everything. Need to travel, we have a saint for that. Need healing, we have a saint for that too. In Paganism it's just Gods and Goddesses for everything. Need to travel, we have a God for that, need healing we have a Goddess for that. Plain and simple. For me I view the different Gods and Goddesses as different facets of the Goddess and God, just as Christians view the different saints as sons and daughters of God.

The Bible has many stories and fables designs to teach Christians right from wrong. Pagans have stories of the Goddesses and Gods that do the same thing. The only difference there is that our Gods learn something, change and grow.

Christians look at their God in the holy trinity, the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost. Pagans view that Goddess in the trinity, Maiden, Mother, and Crone.

Christians do unto others as they would have done onto them. Pagans who follow the Wicca path, follow the Rede of as it harms none do as ye will.

There are many other things like that above that I found. Many things that I found that I would have loved to share with my Christian family to show that I'm not following the path of the devil or whatever. But I realized, my silence speaks loudly than my words ever could on this subject. I'm thought of as a good Christian while in reality I am just being a good Pagan.

I will probably put more down when I can. I might even try to look for my original essay I wrote. 

Home and Happy

So let's see after a 2 and a half week stay in Labor & Deliver I gave birth to my little mermaid girl Ariel on

May 4th, 2011 at 8:37am she weighed 4lbs 13.6oz and was 18.5" long 

which was big for being so early. She did really well on had one rough day where she had to get a chest tube cause she gave herself an air pocket that compressed her lung. It was done in a day and taken out the day after. She came home Friday and yesterday was her first well visit and she now weighs 5lbs 13.5oz and is 19" long! So she's gaining good, we're working on getting the hang of breastfeeding, right now she gets both sides before she gets a bottle and a boob binky when she fusses. It's tough work but I'm willing to do it, I want to breastfeed her for at least a year, and me and pumping are not working well. Especially since someone is getting mad when I pump *ahem Ariel ahem*.