I feel so drained lately, I have no energy, no motivation.
Feeling as though I'm failing everything. Just when I think I'm getting on a good path, getting it together. It crumbles.
Part of me feels like my psychiatrist has given up on me. After trying to up my prozac he has suddenly stopped. Basically admitted that it sounds like I have a personality disorder but left me on the medicine that I feel isn't helping at all. My therapist keeps saying I'm doing good with all that is going on. But honestly I'm not.
They see me on relatively good days.
They don't see me on the bad days.
They don't see me when I'm clawing into my arm cause I'm crying and upset and feeling like a complete failure. Sometimes I'm smoking about a pack a day.
Life get hard to live on certain days, I push through for my kids but it hurts.